I was incredibly stressed over the weekend and took some time to myself, as such the blog did not get updated. But, I'm updating it now with the days of kink I missed over the weekend.
Also, on a semi-related note: Boobie Thon reached over 2 thousand dollars this weekend! Whoo! That's a pretty awesome milestone.
Alright, on to the kink!
Day 3: How did you discover you were kinky?
Someone told me. Haha, that's honestly the best answer I can give. I had a chat with a past boyfriend about certain things I wanted to try and things I would like him to do to me, and the response I got was: "Damn, you're kinky."
I consider a lot of the kinky things I like to be well...normal sex things. It's almost weird to me to think of a couple who just has missionary sex and that's it. That's..odd, and doesn't sound very fun or enjoyable. I mean- to each their own, but to me that isn't normal.
To me, back scratching, hair pulling, ass-beating- that is normal. Maybe it's because I grew up on the internet, where you can find a group for anything you want and dirty, raunchy, kinky sex is out in the open.
So, needless to say, when the old boyfriend said that it was quite a shock. I didn't know if it meant I was odd, or if that made it okay.
I'm still kind of on the fence about it. Experimentation is normal- but how much? When does this become not okay anymore?
Not quite sure I want to reach that point and find out.
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Day Four: Any earlier experiences that, in retrospect, hinted at your kinks?
One in particular, though I won't go into too much detail about it because it borders on almost uncomfortable for me. In my house, for the longest time we didn't have the ear thermometer. We had a mercury one that goes in the ass.
The most detail I'm willing to give on that, when I needed my temperature taken, I didn't exactly hate it.
Of course, later on discovering things like bdsm porn and bondage toys, and being intrigued and aroused by them- was a definite sign that something was a little off in my sexual tastes.
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Day Five: What was your first kinky experience? If you haven't had one yet, talk about what you hope to have happen.
Oh. Let's see. This is a tough one to answer. With a previous boyfriend, we played around with being tied up but it was nothing too serious.
I think my first seriously kinky experience was a very serious spanking I got. My boyfriend at the time was laying on his back on the bed and I was laying across his stomach. I asked him to spank me- and spank me hard- because while he had spanked me before, this time was different.
And he did. It's almost an understatement to say he spanked me, but saying he beat my ass might be a bit much (and terribly upsetting to P. if he's reading this.) He started off incredibly slow and soft, but worked his way up to hitting my ass. In between doing so, he kept pinching me- which wasn't something I'd asked for, but I didn't mind it.
He'd hit me a few times, then pause and rub the soreness away, but eventually as he got really into it he kept hitting harder and harder and stopped rubbing in between. While I liked the pain bordering on pleasure, it got to be too much sensation for me and I started to cry.
He spanked me a few more times before realizing I was crying (or gave up trying to enjoy himself while I was crying) and stopped.
I kind of didn't want him to stop, but at the same time I didn't want him to hit me while I was crying. I had bruises and red marks all on my bottom and couldn't sit for a day.
It wasn't a bad thing. I like being spanked- a lot. And maybe one day I can work back up to a nice, hard flogging with P. (because the pain can feel good), but I don't want to cry again. (And P. will definitely stop if I'm crying. Though, I hope it never comes to that point- because I imagine if I do start to cry P. will never ever spank me again, out of fear that he's hurt me.)
Anyway, Aside from the time I asked this particular boyfriend to slap my face, that was about as kinky as we got and my first serious kink experience.
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